40 ish

As I was in my bathroom the other night doing the ritual washing of the face, it hit me just how much work it takes and hard of a battle fighting wrinkles truly is. Not even just the wrinkles but the aging process alone. Physically it can be tough to learn what your limits are, emotionaly it can be tough to look back and daily it can be tough to look in the mirror at the battle against the clock. A nightly routine of facial cleanser, the clairisonic, eye creams, neck creams, hand and foot creams, brush the teeth, floss the teeth and start all over in the morning. Morning routine of showers, shave creams, shampoo, tons of conditioner, lots of shower gel, clairisonic, eye creams, neck creams, body lotions, facial moisturizer with SPF, tweezing, brushing, flossing, mouthwash, magnifying mirrors, mousse, hair wax, hairspray and never, ever, ever forget the lip gloss. Then lets not even talk about the dreaded trip to the closet...good grief!!
The battle against weight loss and weight maintenance is something that I never thought I would have to worry about...boy was I wrong! I struggle with it on an hourly basis, truly I do. Being around others that don't have that battle makes my own battle that much more difficult. How can she eat like that and not gain a pound? How can he eat like that and still be as fit as he was in his 20's? The older I get the more I realize that my own perception of myself has more to do with it than anything, I have never, ever had a good self esteem and aging has not helped.
The aging goes on daily for us all and being 40 ish you realize it more and more. Some one once told me getting old ain't for sissy's and I sure do get it!!